Feel like crying. Head is starting to hurt. And even though I’m not hungry (stomach is not growling, don’t have that ‘hungry’ feeling), my brain is screaming to eat something. Preferably fattening and sweet. Like shoving a spoonful of those strawberry preserves down my throat. Or eating those nutter butters that are on the counter (a gift from the boyfriend’s mom). I know I’m having a withdrawal (but from what??) and it’s awful.
For breakfast, I had Quaker Old Fashioned Oatmeal with a little sugar sprinkled on top, about 7 raisins, 2 pieces of whole wheat toast and a tablespoon of strawberry preserves. That’s quite a sugar fix…but I don’t know what else that could be sweet to put on my toast? I could go sugar-free, but the fake sugars scare me far more than the real deal.
I was full from 1pm (when I had the meal above…slept in today:) to now (7pm) and decided to have a bowl of homemade minestrone soup I’d cooked up last night. The soup was good, and filling, but I really want something that’s bad for me. What is wrong with me???
Gonna go lay down and hope this headache goes away. My body is going through some type of withdrawal and I can only hope it gets better in the next few days. Was supposed to go the movies tonight, can I stay away from the buttery popcorn?? We’ll see.
~Toodles.
